Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Everybody Hurts....

Oh this morning I woke up hurting. It's also raining. Am I turning into one of those people who will hurt with the change of weather? Well, for the past two months my hip/pelvis/sciatic nerve issues have all been flaring up. My eyes are wonky for the past couple months also, and I was just in to see the eye doctor a few months before that and they said all was fine. The heel of my left foot constantly hurts, and I'm pretty sure it's because I hate wearing socks and shoes...therefore, my sandals don't provide the support I need. I've been spending money that needs to go elsewhere on doctor's visit copays, meds, chiropractor copays, massage therapists, treatments, etc, etc, etc. Don & I just went to our six month psych check up. That was another chunk of change. There's so much more to this story, but I don't want to get into it. This is dreadful enough. Not happy, not cheerful, not productive. But this is my blog, and I can cry if I want to. I just hate not feeling well, constantly hurting (to the point of crying...howling....can't lay/sit/stand/anything....nobody understands, it seems) and being behind in my bills. I am working overtime for the past few less sleep, more lifting, sitting, standing, carrying, etc. *sigh* I can't even take my muscle relaxers and pain killers at work/before work because they make me sooooo loopy-ish. They don't cut the pain, but they sure make me drugged. Oh please, just have some sympathy and compassion for me. Please.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Fishin' in the Dark

And yes, that will be the title of the LO I make, too. HA! So tonight we went fishing. Well, Don cast out a few times. So.....Don went casting and I went picture taking?

His first catch!

Yes, Yes I Am.

I love Noodles & Company. Very much. I even did a layout about it. That's how much I love it. Last night Don & I went in Mankato. I actually had a take away box and enjoyed it for lunch today at the office. LONG day. 9a-10p LONG.

Sunday, June 01, 2008

Let it Go, Let it Go, Let it Go!

I have a problem. I can't let things go. Even when I know it'd be healthier for me. Even when I know things are false. They resonate in my head, the things people say, and I carry them around with me. The comments float in my head, torturing me, taunting me. Recently there was a meltdown in a forum and I was accused of saying things that I never said. Normally, you'd think, "They're wrong. I never said that." and move on. Why can't I do that? Instead, I'm very frustrated that the person is out there lying about me and my friends. I'm hurt. EVEN though I know this person is a liar. I AM BETTER THAN HER. Ugh. Maybe this will help me move on. I sure hope so. She's not worth it. Definitely not worth it.